* alas *

i can breathe properly today..

a sign of relief..

burden off my shoulder..

9 months of carrying it has finally paid off..

the pain, the backaches, the headaches, the agony, the sleepless nights, the cramps, the mood swings, the stress, the tears, the anxieties and everything else seems to wear off..

9 long months..tough months..

the last push was the hardest..so tedious..so frustrating..

pauses after pauses..alot of short breath taken..

kvlye held my hand throughout the whole process..my parents and friends have been nothing but of great support to me..

and when i finally gave my biggest and strongest push, its done..

i made it..

9 months of carrying it..its finally out..its mine..and its worth the wait..

from the making process to the delivery, i've made it..

i held it tightly in my arms, looking at it with pride..
i handed it over to kvlye..he looked at it then he turned his face to me and he smiled at me, gave me a kiss on my forehead and said that he was proud of me..

this morning, i had to give it away..i wasnt reluctant..it was more of a relief to me as i know it didnt belong well with me..it will be better off with another person who will be able to grade it better than i do..

and so then, i gave it away with pride..and im hoping for the best..the best is yet to come..

and i name my "baby", PPTBIIBBAFM...

cute?