* randon thoughts *

Note : this was written a week ago..7 days from now..

What day is it today? Better still, what month are we in now?
Was on the phone with Marylene the other day and I told her that we are now in the month of November. So sad.
These two wonderful questions are questions I caught myself asking over and over again. And you’re about to hear or read, literally about my laments and complains. Yup, that’s right, I’m in the land of the dead, Alor Star.
It has been 2 weeks or more that I’m back here and I have been slacking like nobody’s business. Come on, how can anyone blame me?
I have no commitments such as to study for another exam-because yours truly passed for all subjects *wink*, don’t have to look for job now yet cuz I do not have any frigging transcript with me to tie it with my CV. Well, actually, I’m plain lazy to apply now *scoff*, nor do I have to race against time. In case you’ve forgotten, I’m in AS and here, time is never a factor. That’s why I’m constantly caught not knowing the time. I sleep in the morning and wake up just in time for lunch-everyday. And I’m slacking even more these days cuz I have a maid at home. Wait, did I tell you I have maid? Yup, I got one. And she has been doing laundry, cooking and cleaning up my mess. Doing my dishes and all. That makes me slacks even more. I officially have no responsibility on the own things cuz its taken care of. Sad. But the maid is really nice and helpful. This makes me very lazy. I’m slacking. And I have to learn how to speak Indonesians cuz I can’t understand a frigging word she said.
Weight gained. This is another major yet typical issue that I’m battling with everyday. Looking at the mirror can be kinda soul tormenting sometimes. Yes, I’ve put on massive weight. No kidding this time. How can one blame me when I’m living a glutton’s life here. My schedule is pretty much scheduled and predictable. Its always- wake up, eat, watch tv, eat, sleep, wake up, eat, watch tv, eat, sleep. Everyday it goes on like this. It’s a vicious cycle. No wonder I’m fat. I have no internet connection here which makes me a living zombie. I am bored to death. Did say I was bored? Yes, I am. This is the captivity of freedom where what’s left is the word boredom. And I’m gonna say it again here, BORED! Yeah, spell it with me, baby.
I do hit the mall here and there but when you’re in AS, you can easily head out of the mall in 1 hour, which includes you storming in every department and scanning the goods. I tell you, its true. And I don’t have friends here cuz they all hates me so they ditched me. Kidding. All of them left AS long ago and we’re mostly spread across the world. We either keep in touch through mass email or using the greatest creation called Facebook.
Above all these, I find myself quite settled actually. Its true. To think about it, staying here for a few weeks isn’t that bad afterall. I mean, it is kinda bad but not that bad to the extend that I would shoot myself dead in the head. Here, I get to know and discover about myself more. I get to know what type of person I am becoming. I get to spend quality and slow paste time with my parents, catching up with current issues with them and also talking about our future. I get to taste mom’s and grandma’s delicious yummy cooking. No restaurant and fine dining can ever beat their cooking skills. Brings pleasure to my taste buds. I’m so sure of that. No wonder I’m fat. And I get to value my relationship with kvlye. I guessed its true when they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder. Awesome.
I believe in the midst of solitude and slow paste lifestyle, I can find myself and know what I treasure most. It’s the hectic lifestyle in KL, the rat race atmosphere and the evolving nature in the city that hinders me from realizing what is important and how to realize it. I admit, sometimes, I took for granted the little things in life adding nonsensical immense pressures to myself. But as I took the time to slow down, I realized and I saw lots of beautiful things that I chose not to see when I am in KL using busy as the ultimate common excuse which most treat it as a norm.
I am coming back to KL next week, back to my hectic, busy and fast paste lifestyle and I will always miss the boring, slow paste with nothing to do lifestyle in AS because after all, that’s where I came from. That’s my home and that’s where I found love the most. And I’m very sure of the fact that I will be missing my home in AS the day I step foot in KL again, perhaps shed a tear or two which kvlye thinks it’ll be a bucket full instead. I think he might be right. Till then, I shall lament and complain again about AS during my next trip back but seriously, in spite and despite everything, I love AS.

PS: for those who wish condolences to my family for the loss of my grandpa, I would like to extend my deepest gratitude to you. Thank you very much and for those who didn’t, I guessed we’re no longer friends from now on. Haha. Kidding. Kidding. We would like for you to know that we’re doing fine, if not, better. We’re coping with the loss really well with the grace and the mercy of God and we appreciate your thoughts and your concerns. God bless. Love, Christine and family.