* changed *

i spoke to a dear friend of mine, mary over the phone yesterday..something about changes..

changes..hmm..

as i hung up the phone ready to take a nap, thoughts began to fill my head..

i've changed..in many ways, i have changed..

physically, nothing much..still look as young as can be..

from the way i dressed up, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i wear colourful clothings..more to dark funeral like colors..
i thought dark funeral colors are way cooler now..

from the way i eat, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i like sweet stuffs..i used to be a sweet tooth girl myself..
i turned my love towards salt now..

from the way i connect with people, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i take the first step to say hello..now, i wait to be greeted..
my ego has taken its turn now..

from the way i talk to kvlye, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i talk about just today but i do talk about the future..

from the way i spend my money, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i buy what i like but more to what i need..
money is not easy to be earned for me now..

from the way i look at material goods, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i crave for expensive and branded lines but more to nice and reasonable goods..
brands die after a while and there are always better brands..i cant keep up to the updates..

from the way i communicate with my parents and family, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i demand things from them but rather asked what do they need from me..
i figured i should bless them now..

from the way i meditate on life, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i treat days to come happily go lucky but i fear the future..
i believe in decision and consequences now..

from the way i dealt with things, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i spill all my beans to people but rather keep them to myself..
i have an issue with trust now..



there are many more things that im changing into but i do not know how to express them out..
but bit by bit, i know, i've changed and i am still changing..

but dont get me wrong, im not in a depression state..
im a happy girl who is currently changing..

why do people changed?