* living my dreams *

this post was supposed to be posted like a week ago but then the dates got messed up adn the details got pushed forward and the storage of blogger.com went haywire and this and that..im done explaining but im just gonna let it settle here above my sweet new year post..


living my dreams..

im a dreamer..i daydream most of the time and i dream alot at night..even when i wake up to pee in the middle of the night (i always do), somehow, my dreams will continue..funny but true..

i have alot of dreams and sometimes, i wished i could live in my own dreams where im the girl everyone loves and have almost everything i ever wanted..

lately, someone has been living my dreams and it was painful for me..

i couldn'd lock the ugly green monster inside me and it escaped and i ended up spilling most of it to kvlye who by now should be sick of listening to it already..

the girl..who has been living my dreams have everything i ever wanted or set eyes on..

designers bags..designers shoes..designers clothing..designers vacation spots..designers gadgets..even a designers look..pretty, hot, slim and gorgeous..

im so freaking jealous..i mean, how is it possible?

sadly, it is..i see her almost all the time and every time i watch her, i hated me..i dont know why..maybe my inside voice is doing all the talking and all the thinking..

she's nothing but a sweet good girl..who is living my dreams..and i wished i could make it a reality..

i gave it much thought and the much thought gave me much headaches..

i began to talk to God..and somehow, i felt secure..

you know, it doesnt matter who is living your dreams because one way or another, nobody is perfectly perfect..

when i begin to talk to her..she told me she wished she had some of the things that i have..things that she always dreamt of but never had..i was shocked..how can someone so perfect in my eyes wants some of my things? its true indeed..no one is perfect..

so the next time you go all depress because someone is living you dreams, just pause for a moment, think..breathe and calm down because somewhere out there, someone might wished to be you..

you might be living someone else's dreams..

that can be true too..

for now, im happy to be me..

cheerio..