* help *

im in need of help..a self control help..

ever since ive been earning my own income, money is not a problem or an obligation to me anymore..somehow..

not that im earning alot but its my own money so i do not have much things to figure out..haha..

besides paying off rents and stuffs and savings..*yes, i do have savings and i save..hmppph*,
i still have loads more to spend and the shopping monster inside me is constantly coming out..

it is as if i have no control over it..and i ended up buying expensive things which in the end, regretted buying..

just the other day, i ended up buying lavish shampoo and lavish body shampoo for no rational reason..i tried to reason with myself thinking that its ok..its my birthday week so i getta pamper myself..but in the end, i regretted buying them all..i gotten myself 2 pairs of shoes which now are thrown under the seats of kvlye's car..i bought 4 cardigans of almost the same shades for nuts and a few tops for no practical reason..bought 2 dresses which i know i will never put them on, a watch which i dont really like now, a wallet that i think look hideous, a boardgame that i have no intention to play-kvlye does anyways, a bag which i dont use now, perfume that i seldom wears..gosh..im such a big spender..

my spending habits are going haywire..wild and nonsensical..it's like as if im stupid..

just last night, some of my intestine got tangled up and it hurt like neraka..i thought i was going to get myself an operation instead, i was told to have bread and bread alone for dinner..but kvlye and i, we went to chilis and i did not have bread and bread alone..

*ka-ching*..money gone..not mine but stil..it's money you know!!

i thought i would be a little smarter this time in the mall..you know, not buying anything, just window shopping but i guessed window shopping just dont work for me..i ended up buying a pair of pants from mng for no reason..i just like the shape of it..pay a few bucks for it and ended up not liking it now..i heard another *ka-ching*..and this time, it was from my pocket..

we went to starbucks..there goes another *ka-ching*..and many more petty things bought by yours truly..and many many more *ka-chings* along the way..arrghhh!!!

we went for a movie at gsc signatures..watching 14 blades which in the end my hero died..another *ka-ching*..
i hate movies where my hero dies..i love happy endings..

so yea..im ka-ching-ing all the way and im going out today again..

*ka-ching*

kvlye gave up..so i guessed we are all going to hear more *ka-chings* along the way..haha..

so yea, i guessed i need HHHHHEEEEELLLLPPPPPP!!!