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i will never be the picture perfect fit and too often, i feel as if im destroying snap shots..

i have been living with this for the longest time ever and it never surpasses me..

i pull away from the media hoping that it wont hurt my ego..

this is how i deal with my esteem..

i will never dare to apply for jobs that require the look on the face as i didnt want to further humiliate myself more..

now that im getting married, i figure that it might at least change my way of thinking and heck, something, someone's gotta unleashed their unwanted and insensitive remark on me..

im getting married and all they can think of is how pathetically ugly i'll look in that wedding dress and the hairdo and the veil and the makeup?

count the joy with me, my friend..im getting married to the man whom i love..to the man whom i want to spend the rest of my life with and grow old with..to the man who will father my children and the man whom i simply refuse to live without..and stop airing complaints of how ugly and unattractive i look and how i will be voted the ugliest bride on the globe history..

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so what if i'll make an ugly bride? i will be the VERY HAPPY UGLY BRIDE then..

no matter how ugly others may think or i may think of, i wont be as ugly as that bride, right?

even that i can look for the hidden beauty..