* guilty *

i admit, i have been overly tied down with stuffs that i've forgotten about the ones who needs me..i am selfish..i was tired and stressed up and i've given myself much excuses not to keep in touch thinking that one can solve their own dilemma without me..but i was wrong..the fact that someone is "drowning" and i refused to "saved" her even though i can "swim"..just because i thought that i look fat in swim suit..

when i devote myself into helping someone, it is despite and in spite of everything else..and i am therefore guilty..

i allowed myself to wallow into self pity that i no longer listen to others..i speak more than i should listen..i allowed emotions to take control over me..i allowed myself excuses to creep in and make me sound as if its a virtue..i left my beloved friend who is in need to deal with matters alone when clearly, i should have done something in return for her..i allowed daily pressures to suppressed me..and i allowed petty arguments to settle in between kvlye and i..and all i wanted to say is, im sorry..



im sorry, dear..i shouldnt let petty things bound us like that..i love you..

and im sorry, sarah..i should have talk to you..