* thoughts *

im not only having second thoughts about graduating this sem, im having 10 thoughts about it..

no doubt im superly duper excited about graduating this sem, the convo and all, in 3 months times to be exact but its the fear of, "what's next?" that is killing me..

i know i still have 3 more months to go until i reach the "non-lecture and tutorial world"..but heck, what if im not ready for the working world?

im freaking out..

some of my friends are already sending out their resume..they know what they want..they are ready..and i envy these people..

me on the other hand, busy freaking out..

yes, i do have in mind what i want to do later on after i graduate..but i have this inner feelings that tells me that i cannot manage it..i cant do it..

and little do i realised, i trust my inner feelings..

i fear working..

i fear moving on..

i fear being in the working adult world..

i fear graduating..

i fear almost everything..

tell me, are these thoughts normal for some "fresh-grad-newbies-to-be" like me or am i being too overly paranoid?

i have this feeling that i cannot project professionalism..and i have this feeling that i can do nothing..

i have many thoughts right now..

i need psychological help..

i need to talk to peopleSSSSSSSSSS...

maybe i should just get married and make lots and lots of babies..bloom babies i supposed..be a baby making machine..maybe i can do that..

omg, what am i thinking..im already thinking of the worst scenario ever..nononono......

actually, i think i need to calm down..

* breathe in *

* breathe out *

hmm....

im still not calm..

* drop dead on floor *