* rip *

if i were to ask about MJ yesterday, im sure most people will poke him and make fun of him..

but today, in FB and MSN, people are mourning and respecting him..

makes me wonder..

why can't people show some respect to him by watching what they say about him even before he dies?

some thoughts to ponder on..

rip, MJ..

* gratitude *

today, i sat alone on the couch, thinking about my life and all that i've been through..and what i have..i couldn't thank Him enough for giving me the precious give of LIFE..
and i am forever grateful..

i have food to eat everyday..

i have a place to live..

i have clothes to wear..

i have the sense of security and belonging..

i have good family members..

i have good friends..

i have a good church to attend..

i have a good partner..

i have a good job (im claiming it first, Amen!)

i have a good life..

what's to complain?

thank you, Lord!!!

* love - from the kids *

What does Love mean?

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds,

'What does love mean?' The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

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_____'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grand-father does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.' Rebecca- age 8

_____ 'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.' Billy - age 4

_____ 'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.' Karl - age 5

_____ 'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.' Chrissy - age 6

_____ 'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.' Terri - age 4

_____ 'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes A sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.' Danny - age 7

_____ 'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss' Emily - age 8

_____ 'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.' Bobby - age 7

_____ 'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,' Nikka - age 6

_____ 'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.' Noelle - age 7

_____ 'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.' Tommy - age 6

_____ 'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.' Elaine-age 5

_____ 'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.' Chris - age 7

_____ 'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.' Mary Ann - age 4

_____ 'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.' Lauren - age 4

_____ 'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little Stars come out of you..'Karen - age 7

_____ 'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.' Mark - age 6

_____ 'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.' Jessica - age 8

_____ And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked A bout a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was An elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's Yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little Boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

* my own *

kvlye and i, after T2 last night, were so obsessed with the robots..

and to spark my day a little brighter, he made me my very own robotic character..

take a look at yours truly in robot style..

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you are looking at optimus prime's girlfriend.. *lol*

* i love you *

i love you, optimus prime..though you're just a robot but you're so man to me and not to mention, handsome too..

your character and your will for humans are so strong and i love those characters..

i love you..take me with you to cybertrons..

now i sound like some freako but its ok..

well, my fella friends, this is what you call, the "after-watching-T2-syndrome"..

i watched T2 with kvlye and a group of my friends last night and the group of my friends turned out to be most of the people i know..half of the cinema hall is filled with my church people..cool eh?like a big family watching the robots..

the movie ------> OUTSTANDING !!!

i was captivated by optimus prime..

* wink wink *

hey, im not a perv kays?

the guys are mostly drooling over megan so its ok for me to go head over heels with optimus..

* wink *

anyways, optimus has always been my sweetheart ever since the lowly made cartoon graphic of transformer in my childhood days and in transformer 1, he rekindles my love for him and now..T2..awesome!!!

not gonna spill out the details as i know lotsa peopl havent got the chance to watch it yet..not gonna spoil the market by being a movie spoiler..

so enjoy the movie yourself..

and im definitely watching it again..

i have my own version of optimus prime..but this is

VENGTIMUS PRIME..

vengtimus prime, i heart you even more..muacks !!!

* smiling now *

found my organizer.

kvlye found it.

happy.

thank you, dear.

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* i am getting thinner *

i was put into this situation for the whole entire night where i felt that there was an intestinal disorder with abnormal frequency all within my stomach..like a blending machine or some may call it a blender, blending every liquid and intake i consumed earlier..the sound my stomach make is as though a band of orchestra is busy preparing for a big show case..not long later, i felt the urge to make a big fluid evacuation from the back and i did and it hurts..

many times..

this process wonderfully repeats itself for about 5 times..all during my sleeping time and with me having to crawl from the bed and walk to the toilet to discharge whatever necessary with the ass that hurts like mad is truly a torment..

and i cant thank this 2 fellas enough for contributing to it..

first contributor is...MR COCO POPS AND MILK..




yup yup..i had MILK last night..being a moron who clearly knows that being someone who is lactose intolerant, dairy product, especially milk, is a big NONO but temptation to eat the fully sugar coated cereal with milk is way too strong..


second contributor to me having diarrhea is none other than my boyfriend..MR KVLYE..

no pictures of him..saving his face a bit since im going to back stab him here..haha..
he persuaded me and brain washed me into thinking that i really miss eating sugar coated cereal with milk..he persuaded me into taking that with him over supper while watching hot babes at prom in one of the show in astro..and i stupidly gave in to his persuasion..i must admit, his persuasion skill is lighting up..either that or im getting dumb..

so i belive i have gained myself a ticket of being thinner today..feels sexier and slimmer and wait..i have got to go again..evacuation of liquid..

see ya!!!

* i am mad and i dunno what to do *

kvlye lost my organizer..

and frankly speaking, im really mad about it..

i kept lotsa stuffs in it..not those superbly P&C type of stuffs but that's not the point..

im mad because it wasn't properly taken care of..

and now that im gonna start work real soon, i need it back..and i want it back..

period..

* i have a date tomorrow *

me going for this tomorrow..

for free..

yay!!!

* i got a job *

title says it all..

i got a phone call the other day when i was in AS..

the manager told me i got the job that i was applying for..

nothing fancy but it is something that i like doing and it meets all my requirements..

so why not?

im starting the coming monday..

i know some of you are dying to know how much are they paying me..

not gonna tell the full amount but let's say that it is good for a first timer with the first real job..

benefits and all are good enough..

and i feel good about everything..

i can't wait to start work..dunno what to expect but it is certainly better than bumming at home and gaining no money but more weight..

im looking forward to this monday..at the same time anxious and nervous and sceptical..geez, i dont know where did that come from..

my playful and reckless everyday life ends on sunday..monday comes, it is like living in the real adulthood..

i do hope that i'll shine!!!

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* tabib cina *

i went to see a tabib cina this afternoon..

the tabib readjust my ankle that i've sprained a month ago..

my ankle stinks cuz of the herbs he applied on my ankle..

but it feels good..

i'll be away tomorrow onwards..

will blog again about selayang kids..we recently had kidzlife idol..

will be back to blog about it..

tataz..

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* interview *

one hour interview session..





1. filled in form..5 pages..
2. brief introduction to the manager..
3. sat for 2 tests..
4. interview with the manager..
5. q and a session..








phew!!!

* i've been bumming, thank you very much *

things i do for the past one week..

thursday : went over to vivian's house and to church..

friday : at home stoning..at night, cooked supper with kvlye..bbq beef..

saturday : tropicana city mall..went to church..had dinner with kvlye's parents and sis..pavilion for chocolate drinks with kvlye and his granny..

sunday : kz..mbpj meeting..dinner at vivo's and movie at cineleisure..terminator salvation..

monday : sunway lagoon..manicure..shopping in queenspark...

tuesday : at home bumming..dinner at italian on sixth, pavilion to celebrate kvlye's mom's bday..

wednesday : at home bumming..

thursday : fever..at home bumming..went to church for practise..

friday : at home bumming..interview session at 5pm..shopping for kidzlife in tesco..atrs and crafts at home with kvlye..

thats about it for now..

* interview *

not quite there yet..

but im about to give a hand shake today..

i got an interview session today..

just got to know like an hour ago..

and i am freaking out..

hope i do well..

* fingers crossed *

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so everything is everywhere at the moment..

harap maaf semua..

* happened to me before *

i came across a friend's life who is somewhat similar to mine 4 or 5 years ago..

to cut the long story short..this is how it goes..

girl fell in love with boy..boy feels the same..both boy and girl went on as an item..

boy have to study in another state..girl remain in the state..every week, girl will travel more than 5 hours to meet boy for 2 days then come back to her state..

girl has no life..no friends and no proper time for herself..

i identify with that struggle and that feeling and that sort of situation..i did not like the life that i have then..

and looking back, especially when someone is living your past, i suddenly feel so stupid about myself..

i was naive then..

and just then i realised how much i've grown..

from the desperate childish girl to a more mature, less desperate childish girl..and i definitely love my life now..

* off *

so the nail thingy drives me crazy and depress for the whole day..and since looking at my nails makes me more depress, i took the remover and removed the colors..

so basically, it rm50 for 24hours..

shoot me but i felt so much better after doing it..

at least i dont have to cling on to the guilt everytime i look at the ugly painted nails that cost me a friggin bomb..

on the other hand, i had dinner in "italian on sixth", pavilion last night..was with kvlye and his family..celebrating his mom's bday..

outstanding..enough said..

anyways, im feeling much better now..but im still not used to the transition of life after uni..but, i'll live..

* bum *

bumming ever since..

and im bored..

and i have no motivation to do anything..

is there anything call the "post-grad-withdrawal-symdrome" ?

* me love *

me got meself a tattoo..

nice?

me very happy with me tattoo..

nice?

me love me tattoo..

nice?

* happy time flies *

happy times fly away faster than i thought..

i went to sunway lagoon with kvlye yesterday and i felt as if the clock is ticking faster than usual..

and i wished it was slower..

i had fun there with him..and i just wished i could have longer time there with him..

i dunno why but i got depressed when i reached home..that was after i did my stupid nails in the mall..

so mad..

i wanted to d my nails in one of the nail bar..went there and asked the manicurist for the price..she quoted me the price and its rm20 for the normal one..so i said ok..

then i saw set of samples there on the counter with double coats and simple designs..i asked how much would it cost to get my nails done like that..

she said, rm30..

in my mind, rm30 for all my 10 nails looking pretty with design isnt so bad, right?

so i went along with the design one..

pink and white..

after the whole manicure process..and the drying of my pretty nails process, when im about to pay, she charged me rm50..

RM freaking 50???

i asked WHY in the longest way ever..

she told me in canto..that..normal manicure with color is rm20 and to add design is rm30..so overall, i owe the nail bar rm50..

so yea..i basically spent rm5 per nail on the design which later look kinda ugly to me..and could only last for 5 days..7 days max..and im not going anywhere..so basically, im starting at my rm50 nails at home..

im so not proud of it..and im so disappointed at my stupid decision..

my nails..

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* moved to tears *

i came upon a blog post randomly and i couldnt helped it but googled the related posts about it..

when i read posts upon posts, i couldnt helped but be moved by it..tears began to run down my cheek..

i was touched..

a boy..a 16years old boy died in an accident and his friends writes and blogged beautifully about him..such great legacy he left behind even at a very young age..

so many of his friends acknowledged him and they mourned for him..

i was jealous when i read those posts and i wondered if i will leave behind a good legacy when i die and i wondered if the friends i grew up with and know will have good things to say about me..will i ever receive good eulogies?

that boy left behind sweet memories for his friends and he taught me something..i wished i knew him..im sure he would become my good friend..he's such a good boy reading from his friends' blogs..

rest in peace..