* living my dreams *

this post was supposed to be posted like a week ago but then the dates got messed up adn the details got pushed forward and the storage of blogger.com went haywire and this and that..im done explaining but im just gonna let it settle here above my sweet new year post..


living my dreams..

im a dreamer..i daydream most of the time and i dream alot at night..even when i wake up to pee in the middle of the night (i always do), somehow, my dreams will continue..funny but true..

i have alot of dreams and sometimes, i wished i could live in my own dreams where im the girl everyone loves and have almost everything i ever wanted..

lately, someone has been living my dreams and it was painful for me..

i couldn'd lock the ugly green monster inside me and it escaped and i ended up spilling most of it to kvlye who by now should be sick of listening to it already..

the girl..who has been living my dreams have everything i ever wanted or set eyes on..

designers bags..designers shoes..designers clothing..designers vacation spots..designers gadgets..even a designers look..pretty, hot, slim and gorgeous..

im so freaking jealous..i mean, how is it possible?

sadly, it is..i see her almost all the time and every time i watch her, i hated me..i dont know why..maybe my inside voice is doing all the talking and all the thinking..

she's nothing but a sweet good girl..who is living my dreams..and i wished i could make it a reality..

i gave it much thought and the much thought gave me much headaches..

i began to talk to God..and somehow, i felt secure..

you know, it doesnt matter who is living your dreams because one way or another, nobody is perfectly perfect..

when i begin to talk to her..she told me she wished she had some of the things that i have..things that she always dreamt of but never had..i was shocked..how can someone so perfect in my eyes wants some of my things? its true indeed..no one is perfect..

so the next time you go all depress because someone is living you dreams, just pause for a moment, think..breathe and calm down because somewhere out there, someone might wished to be you..

you might be living someone else's dreams..

that can be true too..

for now, im happy to be me..

cheerio..

* flash back *

was reading blogs after blogs and most of them are talking about how this year have been and im gonna do just the same..peer pressure never cease in me..haha..

so here goes.. * takes a deep breath *


jan: celebrated new year in marriot hotel with kvlye and family..one of the nicest buffet ive tasted my entire life..and doing so tonight as well..

feb: got my first ever fossil watch from kvlye and my first ever huge card handwritten by kvlye..

march: uni..assignments..pain in my butt..haha..

april: uni..finals..pain in my butt..

may: grandpa passed away..another pain in the butt..officially a grad..parted with uni besties *missing-mary,shenny,esee,vic,carmen,tiff,eunice,weiqi,the bear*

june: result out..final lap was great..dean list award..confirmed degree..

july: got a job as an english tutor with good pay..

august: convocation and first studio snaps with over 50 shots..im the star..cell trip to melaka..

september: double As' wedding..wedding of the year..house scouting for future with kvlye..

october: kvlye proposed with a ring and i said yes and we've been engaged ever since..

november: gotten our counselors..3rd year anni for kvlye and i..nova one camp..spaceship was way too cool for my eyes and the cast of nova one, hot and awesome..

december: first french dining..first session of pre-marital counseling..lotsa holidays..preps to work in jan 2010..last day of 2009, buffet at marriot again..





thats about it..yes i know, i live a boring and a dull life..but nvm..im sure 2010 will be just as good if not better..im looking forward to it and i hope you guys are as well..btw, i kept 8 out of 10 of my 2009 new year's resolution..not bad huh?haha..

HAPPY 2010 PEOPLE..

* long overdue *

this is another yet long overdue post..

have been really busy..

updates right away..

- went back for a week before christmas..
- went to penang with cell memebrs for 3 days..
- back to AS for another week till after christmas..kvlye was back for a day..not christmas..
- had my first pre-marital counseling session..
- was working for the past 3 days..hectic and really very stressful..

thats all..

HAPPY NEW YEAR, ALL...

* victoria *

just got off the phone with one of my besties from uni..

im missing her like crazy and i wished that i could be there in sydney with her..at least to hang out with her..either way, to keep me company as well..

maybe cuz most of my other besties are pretty much occupied with their everyday corporate lives and im not..

i miss uni days..i wished we could all go back to where all of us are still sheltered and studying..

* vic and esee *

* esee, vic and i *

* vic on her bday at fridays *

* vic's farewell get-together *

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vic, it was good talking to you over the phone..i guessed i needed that for my own reason and it is really good to talk to you..i pray that you'll do fine there..for whatever reason, come back soon cuz we miss you loads..hugs and kisses..God bless..lots of love..muax..

* starting *

a new and one step closer to getting married..

we'll be starting our first counseling session this coming december..after christmas..
we are both so excited..not to mention our counselors too..and i cant wait to go through this with kvlye..

and speaking of that, can you believe that we're actually getting married soon?

wow..its really a dream come true and im truly blessed and happy and uber excited about it..

* new moon *

i watched this last night..and i think its fabulous..edward cullen is good looking enough and now, jacob..omg..

i was trying to sit still the whole time through cuz i was mesmerized by both the hotties..

me want a movie buddy to watch this again cuz after last night and the way i react, i dont think kvlye will want to watch it with me..haha..

anyways..i gotta catch up with other movies too..