* He knows *

i had had a moment where im filled with all the anxieties the world can ever give me..

that night, i couldn't fall asleep..no matter how much effort i put in..i can remember how bad i felt and how torturing it was..to stayed up all night thinking about what might have been and worrying about everything under the sun..

i was so pre-occupied with my stubborn thoughts that i couldn't listen to what the Lord wants to tell me..i couldn't..

i couldn't let Him in..and i knew well that He is waiting for me to let Him in..

i was stubborn..too overly stubborn..i hate it when im like that but somehow or rather, i refuse to let that part of me go..

but God is faithful and im super sure that He cares alot for me and that He loves me..i need that affirmation and He never fails to give that to me..

the next morning, i went to work..and i was still.......filled with all the anxieties the world can ever give me..

just then, God spoke..through someone during a group devotion and i knew immediately that it was for me..it was what He wanted to tell me the night before..the night when i was too busy worrying and too busy counting my rubbish thoughts..

that morning, He spoke, and i listened..and i was affirmed..

cast all your anxieties to Me..
cast all your anxieties to Me.,.
cast all your anxieties to Me..

and with that, i rest assured..

* now *

im beyond tired now..

have been working over a month now and loving it..have been falling sick for the past few weeks and not loving it..

im counting the days left before the long break im going to enjoy..and yes, with kvlye too..so happy..

we have spend our time together lately..i eman, i see him alot..he fetches me to work every morning and sometimes, sends me home..but we have not pak tor berdua-duaan for quite some time..the only time i can remember us having our own quality time together was last saturday..for about 3 hours..but i was kinda tired then..because i had to work in the morning..

but we have a date this saturday..whole day and also sunday..half a day..hehe..

im looking forward to it..monday is a break day for me..no work..hurray..

and my pay is coming out either tomorrow or thursday..kvlye's too..so that means its gonna be a huge gala for me..SHOPPING time..woohoo..

now who says that working life is a total disaster?

haha..

look who is laughing now?

haha..

ME!!

* im sick *

im sick and im hating it..

slept for a good 15 hours and now, i had enough of sleeping..it makes me feel stupid..haha..

what am i doing now?

blogging and fb-ing on the bed..im lying down on the bed and doing all these side ways..too desperate to get online..

cant eat cuz whatever goes in my mouth will come out..

so yea..

have been working and work is fine..loving it and having loads of fun doing what im doing..

have been doing some spending too..haha..and now, im wishing to get a new hp, new clothes and new pair of glasses..

got my new pair of shoes last week which cost a bomb but that bomb was so comfortable..woohoo..

next pre-marital counseling is gonna be on sunday..excited..

* work starts *

im blogging in the office..yipeeyayo..a brief one though..

haha..

and yes, im officially working..still on probation though but im happy with the way things are right now..

lotsa work to do..not much time to spare but im loving this alot..

ah well..gtg now..

told you it's gonna be brief..

more updates later..

toodles..