* a new day *

its a new day today..

start it right and end it right as well..

tomorrow is valentine's..

im excited though im not celebrating it..

maybe its the driving lesson..

gosh..i hope i can wake up to go for my lesson..

big car, here i come..

* vday *

vday is just around the corner..hmm..vday vday vday..

i never really celebrated vday with kvlye..

inclusive of this year (2009), this vday will only be the 3rd one for us..

what happened during vday 2 years ago? let mua tell you..

year 2007..

i decided to celebrate vday with the girls in my church..it was fantabulous..the church itself was beautifully decorated..it was beautiful..all the girls that were there, dresses up beautifully..

it was considered to be some what of a fine dining..there's a little menu on the nicely decorated table with of cuz, candles and flower petals..menu with choices of steak, lamb and fish..i took fish..it came along with cold salads and soup of the day and of cuz, after meal, dessert..

there are also performances and yah..the dance floor and the girls went wild..hehe..

of cuz there are no boys allowed so kvlye was very much on his own doing his very own stuffs..i was busy having all girls fun..

at the end of the whole dinner, we were given a miniature estee lauder perfume..

and when we were about to go, there, out of nowhere, a group of nicely dressed guys, wearing tuxedo with ties..each holding a stalk of red rose..

the girls were amazed at how well the guys groomed themselves..and i saw my kvlye standing among the other guys..he too was wearing a nice tux with a matching tie and holding a stalk of red rose..

he came to my direction, came right to me, gave me a hug and handed me the rose..and whispered in my ears, "happy valentine's day, darling"..i went out of the church smiling..

he fetched me home..he stopped halfway, took out a box of something and handed it to me..

i opened it, and it was a beautifu platinum necklace with a lovely heart shaped pendant..

that my friend, is vday for year 2007..



year 2008..

we argued on that very own day..i got down from the car and accidentally hurt myself trying to "escape" from him..cuz i was so mad at him..

at night,after my work..he bought me a piece of my fav chocolate indulgence and a card..everything that he wanted to say was in that card..and for someone who hates writing, he managed to impress me..

that year, kvlye celebrated vday with his mom, dad and nicole..he took them out..it was a family day for him..we celebrated it the next day where prices for food and all are back to "normal"..

that was our valentine's day for year 2008..


what about this year?

for valentine's day 2009, im having driving big car lesson with kvlye..

and more to come..i have no idea what..but we'll see..but im sure, very sure that it will not be that of a bling bling..




HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !!!!!!!!!!

* thoughts *

im not only having second thoughts about graduating this sem, im having 10 thoughts about it..

no doubt im superly duper excited about graduating this sem, the convo and all, in 3 months times to be exact but its the fear of, "what's next?" that is killing me..

i know i still have 3 more months to go until i reach the "non-lecture and tutorial world"..but heck, what if im not ready for the working world?

im freaking out..

some of my friends are already sending out their resume..they know what they want..they are ready..and i envy these people..

me on the other hand, busy freaking out..

yes, i do have in mind what i want to do later on after i graduate..but i have this inner feelings that tells me that i cannot manage it..i cant do it..

and little do i realised, i trust my inner feelings..

i fear working..

i fear moving on..

i fear being in the working adult world..

i fear graduating..

i fear almost everything..

tell me, are these thoughts normal for some "fresh-grad-newbies-to-be" like me or am i being too overly paranoid?

i have this feeling that i cannot project professionalism..and i have this feeling that i can do nothing..

i have many thoughts right now..

i need psychological help..

i need to talk to peopleSSSSSSSSSS...

maybe i should just get married and make lots and lots of babies..bloom babies i supposed..be a baby making machine..maybe i can do that..

omg, what am i thinking..im already thinking of the worst scenario ever..nononono......

actually, i think i need to calm down..

* breathe in *

* breathe out *

hmm....

im still not calm..

* drop dead on floor *

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i spent a good 2 years blogging about what happened and what might have been..

and i took only 15mins today, deleting those of what happened and what might have been..

reason being, i felt that some of my older posts are rather depressing and very demotivating..

therefore, i would want certain changes to take place..

sure i miss the old posts as i know i can never get them back again but nevertheless, i believe i have better things to blog about later..

and surely, it will not be as before..or at least not so as before..

thank you..

love,
crossbun

* its a holiday today *

its a holiday today..

im going to spend my holiday today with kvlye..

quality times, baby!!!

* fit *

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i need to lose weight..

for goodness' sake christine, stop eating..

grrr...

* wish *

i wished that my country will remain peaceful..

and i wished that the government will look after the well-being of the citizens..

* another day *

4 weeks in uni already..

first week of febuary..

second month of the year..

how time flies..

im getting older by the minute..

and im still dreaming away..

WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE, CHRISTINE!!!

* 25 random things about me *

1. I love shopping..love it to the max..love it love it love it..muacks..

2. I can only sleep if i have my blankie with me..and my blankie is 24 years old..

3. I need to wake up to pee every one to two every night..

4. I wished i was a princess and i even bought a tiara to wear it at home..

5. I wore 2nd hand clothes right till i was 16 years old..branded ones summor..

6. I am still friends with some of my childhood friends..very close still..19 yrs of friendship..

7. My fav number is 27..my bday date.. *hint hint*

8. I was admitted to the hospital once for stomach ulcer..

9. I was together with KVLye during my stay in the hospital..

10. KVLye and i experienced distance relationship for about a year.. which he came back twice to see me..

11. I was an anorexic..im much fatter now..way fatter..

12. I put soya sauce on nasi lemak..i just love salty food..i out soya sauce in everything..

13. I fell 9 steps down the stairs all the way on my knees before..it hurts like crap..

14. I used to have bad eczema since birth..my Lord healed me when i was 12..it never return..Amen!!

15. I wanted to study law in Yale..

16. I only knew how to use a pendrive when i am 21 yrs old..

17. I love veges..except eggplant..

18. I want to travel to japan..

19. I have good memory banks..i can remember things seen and heard from as long as 15 yrs ago..

20. One of my new year's resolution in 2009 is to drop 5-8kg in weight..

21. One of my many dreams is to do ballet..

22. I love musical broadways..

23. I cry easily..a very emo person i am..

24. I wave regardless of where i am and who im with everytime i saw a plane flying above me..

25. I'm graduating soon..

* gone baby gone *

its irritatingly annoying when the things you really love went missing..

its better to get robbed in the face than have your things missing..at least you know who took your stuffs.. * touch wood *

its better to suspect somebody to have stolen your stuffs than to have your things missing and suspect no one at all..at least you know it wasnt your fault..

its worst when you are neither robbed and your things are not stolen but they went missing out of your own carelessness..

now that is irritatingly annoying..

* updates *

im back..and fat..

yup..have been eating alot throughout my one week in AS..and how much weight did i put on?err..i have no idea..dare not weigh myself though..im still gonna live in denial..i think it will make me feel better..at least for now..so, if you wanna kill me, just gimme the weighing machine..

btw, i have fun in AS although there is some period of time where i felt as if mushrooms are growing wild on my head..hehe..

but i admit, i spent quality time with my family..it was all about them this time around..no outings, no hang outs..just my family and i..one solid week..and i miss them so much now that im back here blogging in kl..

* sigh *

time flies..

anyways, kvlye picked me up from the airport..he greeted me with a hug and a kiss..

we went for dinner and back to his place where he presented me with the goodies he bought from japan for me..it was a luggage full of goodies..

im so happy..

nicole have a fun time giggling at me as i allow the child inside run free..hehe..

im sleeping with my goodies tonight..

yippy..

* missing him *

i miss him..

im back home and he's else where..

this year, we didnt celebrate chinese new year together..

he is with his family and me with mine..

and i miss him so so much..

its been 2 days now..

miss my dear..

* happy cny *

picture paints a thousand words..

so,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!

* an angel *

it was raining cats and dogs when i was about to exchange train to meet up with kvlye..

i have no umbrella with me..

and its raining cats and dogs..

i have my own set of problems for the day..it hasnt been a perfect day..

and it was raining cats and dogs..

and i have no umbrella..

i was practically drenched..

i was in the state of breaking down and cry..

i needed a miracle..

just then when i thought that i am gonna be caught in the rain for the rest of my way to the train station, an angel shielded me with an umbrella..

for a while, the rain did not touch me..

up till i reach the other train station..

the angel gave me a piece of tissue paper to wipe my face..

i took it..

and just when i want to look up and say thank you, my angel disappear..

right at that point, i believe with all my heart that my greatest Daddy in heaven sent me an angel to keep me safe..He sent me an angel to brighten up my day..He sent me an angel to be with me in the midst of my own stormy and rainy day..

after all, it ended up to be a perfect day because my Daddy cares..and He knows..even without me telling Him..He knows..and that made my day PERFECT!!!

thank You, Father..

* newbie *

i have new pairs of eyes..

yay..

actually, mum gotten me contact lenses for my sepeted eyes..

and yes..im such a noob..first time ever in my 23 years and 11 months of life, i am wearing contact lenses..

yesterday was my second day of wearing them and was my first time wearing them to uni..man, it hurts like siou..

the amount of time i complain to my friends and asking them to look into my eyes to see if those contact lenses are still attached to my eyes..i lost count..haha..

but it felt good..

i know to some its just an ordinary thinggy but to me, it was a breakthrough..

my first ever contact lenses..

so i love my lenses..

so last night, i packed my solutions, saline and lenses and put them near my sink so that it will be easier to put them on the next morning..

so excited..

and this morning, i didnt put them on..

reason, too tired..

done..

* the best cleaner *

let me share with you a story about a cleaner..a toilet cleaner..

last wednesday, kvlye and i was supposed to go to petaling street to get some stuffs..but it rained..

and since we were half way to the destination and going back home will be a problem, we decided to just have dinner in sungai wang..

so we went to sungai wang..

and me, being the miss pee pot, have to pee..so i went to the ladies..

there i met the best toilet cleaner..she was an indon..

the toilet was dry and clean..she repeated mop the floor dry and she was really well mannered..

i cant stand chemical smells from the toilet..but that toilet in which i was in, there is no chemical smell but only the smell of clean fresh air form the window..

the basins are dry and clean..and the mirror, its stainless..no fingerprints mark at all..

and the sanitary disposal bin, emptied and clean..very impressive, eh?

the cleaner herself, is very polite..very pleasant..

wow..

i am impressed..

* aiks *

this is a conversation between one of my girlfriend and i..

GF : hey babe, im pregnant..

me : omg!! how now?

GF : i dunno..

me : gosh..what were you thinking?

GF : i dunno..im not married yet..

me : should have thought of it earlier, rite?

GF : well, at least i know im not BARREN!!!

my girlfriend and i ended up laughing..but its true..she's pregnant and she's not planning to get married..and she's not planning to tell her parents..


and me?? i have no idea what to say to her..

ideas, anyone?


ps, im allowed to blog abt this just in case anyone of you would want to accuse me of being such a big mouth girl..

* perfection *

too many times, we wished upon the stars that someday we will find our prince..we dreamt about the perfect man who can sweep you off your feet..with just one smile, he will make your heart skip not just one beat, but a few beats..

i was once that girl..

the girl who wants a tall, rich and good looking man as my man..a man who will make every girl alive jealous..a girl who will get absoulutely everything that she wanted..a girl who dates a tough hunky jock..

but then again..all these are just a dream we girls dreamt of..but when you really fall in love, all these doesnt matter anymore..you look at things differently..

kvlye..he's not a tall, rich and good looking guy to many but to me..he is..

he is tall in his ambitions and aims, rich in character and he certainly is a good looking guy..both in the heart and also physically..

he is fit..very fit to be my man..he is certainly the man of my dream..

and i love him..

* my best friend and my greatest bonus in life *

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he told me about the plans..

and im happy..

simple..

=)

* 2009 - wishlist *

some one once asked me early this year, what do i want throughout this new year..

here are some of my wish list..

things im going to aim buying with my own money..am going to save all my ringgits and cents to get it myself..

here goes :

1. l'occitane cherry blossom perfume..
2. a leather bag and also a casual looking bag from topshop or esprit..
3. a pair of crocs (got it)..
4. a zara sweater..and from others too..
5. a pair of levis jeans..and other jeans..
6. pretty blouses from topshop and zara..and from others too..
7. 2 pretty dresses for andy's and alice's wedding..
8. a nice bracelet made of white gold..
9. cutting, straightening and highlighting my hair..
10. a pair of aldo slippers
11. a holiday trip..
12. loads and loads of pretty tees..
13. a pair of pretty heels for andy's and alice's wedding..
14. loads of working attire..
15. a few casual dresses..
16. few pairs of shorts..
17. few pretty casual skirts..
18. pretty hair clips..
19. a fossil watch..
20. a leather purse from CK..
21. a pair of sunglasses..
22. a pair of sneakers..
23. a new bible (this is a must)

gosh..i sound so materialistic..but im gonna aim to get it all within a year with my own money..

and for starter, i got myself a pair of crocs..yay!!!

the list might get longer..but im determine to get them this year..yay!!!