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they say..if life throws you a lemon, you use it for your lemonade..or in your tequila..

but i say..if life throws you a lemon, you pick the lemon up and throw your life at it, and say to yourself, I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!

forget about whacha wanna do with the lemon..think about whacha wanna do with your life..

suck it up and move on!!

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* lesson beyond words *

alot of times, i take for granted the things which i have..

and it took me 2 years to learn how to count my blessings and learn to count it all joy..

a team of 10, regularly go to selayang to build relationship with a group of wonderful kids..they are not so fortunate..some come from broken families and most of them are poor financially..

we call our prog - KIDZLIFE..we go to selayang every sunday..

and during deepavali..we were invited to some of their houses..we have close relationship with the kids and by them inviting us, it showed us that they value us..that was lesson number 1..they value relationship and the times they share with us which i thought was just random..





this is gayathri and her dad..she's such a sweetie pie and she's really adorable and yes, she is poor..the electricity in her house has been cut off because her family can no longer afford to pay for the bills..and their family only had maggi for deepavali meals..still, she goes on smiling..lesson number 2 - SMILE, even at your worst..

this is suganthi's and kanaga's family..8 siblings and a single mom living in a house with 2 rooms..their sisters are smart and intelligent and they work hard to achieve great success..all of their sisters are graduates..and they served us with their best meal..lesson number 3 - don't complain but work hard to achieve success..

this is the kaurs' siblings..they live in a spare part shop and their house is made from a metal box..they dont even have any room..the living room and the "room" is separated by a cupboard..during deepavali, they serve us with everything they have..aunty practically scooped everything from the pot for us because they are thankful that we took care of the kids..lesson number 4 - be thankful..even when you dont have enough..

through this visitation over the deepavali festival, i learnt to count my blessings instead of airing my complaints..and to be contended with everything..

* new baby *

my new toy..

heart..heart..and heart for this baby..

* not just another day *

today, 3 years ago, he carried me to his car and drove me to the hospital..his hands holding mine tightly all the way, never flinched..at the hospital, he held my hands..

today, 3 years ago, i said yes and it has been an unforgettable and great journey ever since..

today is - 18th november 2009..

* cold..brrr.. *

it rains everyday..

i love the cooling effects the weather is giving..

the sleeping sensation and the lazy mode..im loving it..

but whats not cool about the weather is the fact that my undies are still wet from the day before..

i kinda need the sun a little bit here and there to dry my undies..i dont have enough to wear already..

so SUN..please shine and dry my undies..

* keep your thoughts to yourself *

i am a person who value opinions and i admit that opinions help us grow and in my case, yes..some of the opinions i obtained from people do help me grow and i gladly appreciate such opinions..you know, opinions that help you grow..

but but but but..there are people who loves launching their unwanted opinions and that kind of opinions will not help one grow likewise in my case.i am an easily influence person and sometimes i listened too much to the voices outside that i forgotten all about my own voice inside.

this make me sad because i will get all personal afterwards and realised that they are deciding for me base on their personal experience.then i realised it is really a personal issue after all.

helping is good and opinions are good as well but sometimes, its good to keep some to oneself and not act like a smarty pants just because one's life works another way around.i guessed there is a reason why God wired different people differently.

i speak for myself as well.not to always give an opinion because not everyone wants an opinion from me and vice versa.

* head bang *

kvlye and i were goofing around and we were jokingly trying to scratch each other's faces and just when i was trying to escape from his nails that were approaching fast, i accidentally knocked into the wall..

it was a loud thud and a hard bang..

it held me speechless for a moment and for that very moment, i thought i had blood clogged in my brain and suddenly, my world spins 100 times faster..i was dizzy and was in pain and let out a few drops of tears..

poor kvlye..he must had felt so bad for goofing around with the clumsy old klutzy me..

he had to make stupid funny faces to make me stop sobbing and to make him feel better, of course..

he rubbed my head tenderly, hopefully it wont swell..

i felt better with his caring touch but my head still hurts..it hurt all the way to the eye..

and it still does..

so next time, we know..to goof around with the clumsy old klutzy me, one have to look for safe and danger free zone..

for the sake of all mankind..

* sesame street *

sesame street is 40 years old..

my fav ads from google..

* heart *

arent they pretty?

they are indeed pretty..and lovely..

hearts..more hearts..i heart the hearts..

* purest *

i know He me..

* so what? *

i will never be the picture perfect fit and too often, i feel as if im destroying snap shots..

i have been living with this for the longest time ever and it never surpasses me..

i pull away from the media hoping that it wont hurt my ego..

this is how i deal with my esteem..

i will never dare to apply for jobs that require the look on the face as i didnt want to further humiliate myself more..

now that im getting married, i figure that it might at least change my way of thinking and heck, something, someone's gotta unleashed their unwanted and insensitive remark on me..

im getting married and all they can think of is how pathetically ugly i'll look in that wedding dress and the hairdo and the veil and the makeup?

count the joy with me, my friend..im getting married to the man whom i love..to the man whom i want to spend the rest of my life with and grow old with..to the man who will father my children and the man whom i simply refuse to live without..and stop airing complaints of how ugly and unattractive i look and how i will be voted the ugliest bride on the globe history..

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so what if i'll make an ugly bride? i will be the VERY HAPPY UGLY BRIDE then..

no matter how ugly others may think or i may think of, i wont be as ugly as that bride, right?

even that i can look for the hidden beauty..

* it is good *

today is a good day..simply because my Daddy makes it all good for me..

it is a beautiful day..

Dad, thank You for this wonderful day..it is indeed a good day today..

thank You, Father..

my Father i adore You more than anything that i could wish for, i just want You..

i love You, Father..

* memorylane *

i rekindled some memories from high school..and they were just so farnie..i couldnt stop laughing at my own stupidity..those memories serve for a lifetime..bitter sweet ones..i am still laughing and i cant stop..i wonder why..

* bruise *

i got this very unattractive bruise from some bug..

bitten nicely on my left thigh..

luckily i can still hide them under my pants..

that was some breather..

* boohoo *

that is me crying and kvlye happily snapping a few shots of it..

let me recall why i cry..

i think i fell..

boohoo..

* the proposal *

we spent a year talking, quarrelling, crying, laughing over the Internet..he was in japan and i was in malaysia..he was working intensively with a japanese company whilst i was doing my bachelor here in kl and crashing in my besties' crib to meet him online..was the worst time of us being together apart..but we managed well..

one fine day in october, after 3 years of courtship, kvlye (pic), went down on his knee, and said:

"darling, i want to spend the rest of my life with you and i hope that you will want to spend the rest of your life with me..will you marry me?"

i was amazingly shocked..and thought that he was joking so i said:

"yeah yeah..whatever..fast fast get ready else we'll be late for practise.."

he then held up a shinning rock..beautiful and shinny..and he said:

"this is for real..i want you to be my wife and i love you..will you marry me?"

i was utterly in shock and it finally came to senses that this is for real..

and i said : YES!!!

he got up..put the ring on my finger..and we hugged for a good 5 mins i think and both were in tears..

here we are..happily engaged!!!

the ring <3

* story *

i have a story to tell..

ite been long overdue..

people came asking me how kvlye propose..

im gonna tell you my story..

not now..

later la..in the morning or so when im awake..

off to bed now..

nitey..

* love *

who loves me?

im so secured with this question..

my answer : God - with the unconditionally love, the agape love..

im secured..

* failure *

yup.enough said.

that is my exact feeling.

some say marriage comes with a stable job at hand first.

no job, no career.no career, hence no happy nor healthy marriage.

this statement effects me.

dude, im getting married soon and im still jobless.

does that mean kvlye is marrying a total fat failure?

* excited *

its finally coming.

after all the anticipation and the planning and the date setting and the starter and the dreams and the storyline and the whole pre-planning and prep thinggy..

its finally coming..

already sorted up who is in charge of what and who will be the band playing for this joyous event..and bla bla..

the only thing missing is the outfit for the event..yet to choose and rent them but im jolly excited about the whole thing..

it's like a dream come true..once again getting close to one another..i cant wait..its happening and i cant imagine it..woohoo..

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were you guys thinking about my wedding?

haha..

gotcha didn't i?

sorry sorry..

my wedding has no plan yet..cuz its gonna happen next year but to set some updates, we got our counselors already and we're starting our pre-marital counseling in december..and we love our counselors and they love us too..