* long overdue *

this is another yet long overdue post..

have been really busy..

updates right away..

- went back for a week before christmas..
- went to penang with cell memebrs for 3 days..
- back to AS for another week till after christmas..kvlye was back for a day..not christmas..
- had my first pre-marital counseling session..
- was working for the past 3 days..hectic and really very stressful..

thats all..

HAPPY NEW YEAR, ALL...

* victoria *

just got off the phone with one of my besties from uni..

im missing her like crazy and i wished that i could be there in sydney with her..at least to hang out with her..either way, to keep me company as well..

maybe cuz most of my other besties are pretty much occupied with their everyday corporate lives and im not..

i miss uni days..i wished we could all go back to where all of us are still sheltered and studying..

* vic and esee *

* esee, vic and i *

* vic on her bday at fridays *

* vic's farewell get-together *

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vic, it was good talking to you over the phone..i guessed i needed that for my own reason and it is really good to talk to you..i pray that you'll do fine there..for whatever reason, come back soon cuz we miss you loads..hugs and kisses..God bless..lots of love..muax..

* starting *

a new and one step closer to getting married..

we'll be starting our first counseling session this coming december..after christmas..
we are both so excited..not to mention our counselors too..and i cant wait to go through this with kvlye..

and speaking of that, can you believe that we're actually getting married soon?

wow..its really a dream come true and im truly blessed and happy and uber excited about it..

* new moon *

i watched this last night..and i think its fabulous..edward cullen is good looking enough and now, jacob..omg..

i was trying to sit still the whole time through cuz i was mesmerized by both the hotties..

me want a movie buddy to watch this again cuz after last night and the way i react, i dont think kvlye will want to watch it with me..haha..

anyways..i gotta catch up with other movies too..

* what happens *

what happens when you try to cover up something so bad with a lie?

let me tell you what..

one lie will turn into many more lies and temptations will then lead into sins..and when sins are not taken out carefully, they becomes a part of you and you will find it hard to let it go..

so what then?

what?

pull that root out and destroy it before it gets a whole of you..

say NO..

* smiley *

work starts in january 2010..

will have loads of time for rest and relax before it is time for work..

* drama drama and drama *

pictures are not in order but nvm..its fun looking at them..

these pics are of the 3rd day drama..

sadly, tak nampak aku punya muka..sigh..

:)

* over and done *

the whole entire 3 days camp was a blast..everything went superdy-duper well and i was so blessed and yes, blessed..wait, did i mention that i was blessed?
yup..i was blessed..

acting as SUN (my space chracter name in the drama) was great..i love my space outfit..sexy looking..woohoo..

and i cant really write much here as im superdy-duper tired and i miss the internet so im facebooking and emailing and blogging..i should be out and running after a few days of rests..havent been sleeping well lately..that probably explains why i took 30mins to put on my contact lens which went all the way inside my eyes during the drama earlier..agony and pain..

anyways, im zone out and im currently having the withdrawal syndrome now..kinda emo that everything ended..i so miss nova one X..

il be updating more details about the camp and drama..alongside with pictures of yours truly in sexy space costumes..oh oh..did i mention that i wore a super short silver color mini skirt, tight turtle neck with a silver vest and long tight pants and hot leather boots with my hair neatly gel up with red spray?

yup yup..

pictures to prove them later.. *fingers crossed*

so anyone who took pictures for all 3 days' drama, please send them to me..zankiu..

roger and out!!

* if *

they say..if life throws you a lemon, you use it for your lemonade..or in your tequila..

but i say..if life throws you a lemon, you pick the lemon up and throw your life at it, and say to yourself, I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!

forget about whacha wanna do with the lemon..think about whacha wanna do with your life..

suck it up and move on!!

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* lesson beyond words *

alot of times, i take for granted the things which i have..

and it took me 2 years to learn how to count my blessings and learn to count it all joy..

a team of 10, regularly go to selayang to build relationship with a group of wonderful kids..they are not so fortunate..some come from broken families and most of them are poor financially..

we call our prog - KIDZLIFE..we go to selayang every sunday..

and during deepavali..we were invited to some of their houses..we have close relationship with the kids and by them inviting us, it showed us that they value us..that was lesson number 1..they value relationship and the times they share with us which i thought was just random..





this is gayathri and her dad..she's such a sweetie pie and she's really adorable and yes, she is poor..the electricity in her house has been cut off because her family can no longer afford to pay for the bills..and their family only had maggi for deepavali meals..still, she goes on smiling..lesson number 2 - SMILE, even at your worst..

this is suganthi's and kanaga's family..8 siblings and a single mom living in a house with 2 rooms..their sisters are smart and intelligent and they work hard to achieve great success..all of their sisters are graduates..and they served us with their best meal..lesson number 3 - don't complain but work hard to achieve success..

this is the kaurs' siblings..they live in a spare part shop and their house is made from a metal box..they dont even have any room..the living room and the "room" is separated by a cupboard..during deepavali, they serve us with everything they have..aunty practically scooped everything from the pot for us because they are thankful that we took care of the kids..lesson number 4 - be thankful..even when you dont have enough..

through this visitation over the deepavali festival, i learnt to count my blessings instead of airing my complaints..and to be contended with everything..

* new baby *

my new toy..

heart..heart..and heart for this baby..

* not just another day *

today, 3 years ago, he carried me to his car and drove me to the hospital..his hands holding mine tightly all the way, never flinched..at the hospital, he held my hands..

today, 3 years ago, i said yes and it has been an unforgettable and great journey ever since..

today is - 18th november 2009..

* cold..brrr.. *

it rains everyday..

i love the cooling effects the weather is giving..

the sleeping sensation and the lazy mode..im loving it..

but whats not cool about the weather is the fact that my undies are still wet from the day before..

i kinda need the sun a little bit here and there to dry my undies..i dont have enough to wear already..

so SUN..please shine and dry my undies..

* keep your thoughts to yourself *

i am a person who value opinions and i admit that opinions help us grow and in my case, yes..some of the opinions i obtained from people do help me grow and i gladly appreciate such opinions..you know, opinions that help you grow..

but but but but..there are people who loves launching their unwanted opinions and that kind of opinions will not help one grow likewise in my case.i am an easily influence person and sometimes i listened too much to the voices outside that i forgotten all about my own voice inside.

this make me sad because i will get all personal afterwards and realised that they are deciding for me base on their personal experience.then i realised it is really a personal issue after all.

helping is good and opinions are good as well but sometimes, its good to keep some to oneself and not act like a smarty pants just because one's life works another way around.i guessed there is a reason why God wired different people differently.

i speak for myself as well.not to always give an opinion because not everyone wants an opinion from me and vice versa.

* head bang *

kvlye and i were goofing around and we were jokingly trying to scratch each other's faces and just when i was trying to escape from his nails that were approaching fast, i accidentally knocked into the wall..

it was a loud thud and a hard bang..

it held me speechless for a moment and for that very moment, i thought i had blood clogged in my brain and suddenly, my world spins 100 times faster..i was dizzy and was in pain and let out a few drops of tears..

poor kvlye..he must had felt so bad for goofing around with the clumsy old klutzy me..

he had to make stupid funny faces to make me stop sobbing and to make him feel better, of course..

he rubbed my head tenderly, hopefully it wont swell..

i felt better with his caring touch but my head still hurts..it hurt all the way to the eye..

and it still does..

so next time, we know..to goof around with the clumsy old klutzy me, one have to look for safe and danger free zone..

for the sake of all mankind..

* sesame street *

sesame street is 40 years old..

my fav ads from google..

* heart *

arent they pretty?

they are indeed pretty..and lovely..

hearts..more hearts..i heart the hearts..

* purest *

i know He me..

* so what? *

i will never be the picture perfect fit and too often, i feel as if im destroying snap shots..

i have been living with this for the longest time ever and it never surpasses me..

i pull away from the media hoping that it wont hurt my ego..

this is how i deal with my esteem..

i will never dare to apply for jobs that require the look on the face as i didnt want to further humiliate myself more..

now that im getting married, i figure that it might at least change my way of thinking and heck, something, someone's gotta unleashed their unwanted and insensitive remark on me..

im getting married and all they can think of is how pathetically ugly i'll look in that wedding dress and the hairdo and the veil and the makeup?

count the joy with me, my friend..im getting married to the man whom i love..to the man whom i want to spend the rest of my life with and grow old with..to the man who will father my children and the man whom i simply refuse to live without..and stop airing complaints of how ugly and unattractive i look and how i will be voted the ugliest bride on the globe history..

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so what if i'll make an ugly bride? i will be the VERY HAPPY UGLY BRIDE then..

no matter how ugly others may think or i may think of, i wont be as ugly as that bride, right?

even that i can look for the hidden beauty..

* it is good *

today is a good day..simply because my Daddy makes it all good for me..

it is a beautiful day..

Dad, thank You for this wonderful day..it is indeed a good day today..

thank You, Father..

my Father i adore You more than anything that i could wish for, i just want You..

i love You, Father..