* time *

i've got so much time to spare ever since i resigned..

its good though..got some catch up time to do..rest..nap..and cool things of for a little while..

and yea, im trying to put on some weight..losing alot lately so kvlye is not stuffing me with food to get my weight back on a more balance basis..

have been killing time watching series..

*im done with grey's anatomy season 5..
*half way with heroes season 3..
* im also done with one tree hill season 6..
* starting on prison break season finale..

i watched series non stop..continuously until my laptop went burning hot..

thats why im losing weight i guessed..watching series after series and was too lazy to move to get myself some food..i tell you, it works..at least on me..

* clothes *

im waiting for my new clothes to arrive..

yay!!!

i can't wait..they are on their way from korea and japan..

im superbly happy nowadays with my wardrobe..

am getting new clothes..bought 5 online..3 on their way..bought 1 from melaka..
bought 2 from midv..and kvlye's mom bought me 2 tops from hong kong..

yup..im happy..dresses plus beautiful tops makes christine a happy girl..

YAY!!!!!!

i have new clothes to wear..

now i need to get some bags and shoes to match them all..

kidding..

im happy with my wardrobe..

* broken *

thats me right there..

thats me right there when unneeded words were uttered to me..

thats me right there when the table was turned against me..

* <3 *

i miss this guy..

even if i spent my everyday lunch and dinner and every other spare time together with him, i will still miss him..

miss him..

and certainly loving him..

* cancer *

i dreamt about my gramps yesterday who died of cancer..

i miss him..

alot..

:(

* changed *

i spoke to a dear friend of mine, mary over the phone yesterday..something about changes..

changes..hmm..

as i hung up the phone ready to take a nap, thoughts began to fill my head..

i've changed..in many ways, i have changed..

physically, nothing much..still look as young as can be..

from the way i dressed up, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i wear colourful clothings..more to dark funeral like colors..
i thought dark funeral colors are way cooler now..

from the way i eat, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i like sweet stuffs..i used to be a sweet tooth girl myself..
i turned my love towards salt now..

from the way i connect with people, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i take the first step to say hello..now, i wait to be greeted..
my ego has taken its turn now..

from the way i talk to kvlye, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i talk about just today but i do talk about the future..

from the way i spend my money, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i buy what i like but more to what i need..
money is not easy to be earned for me now..

from the way i look at material goods, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i crave for expensive and branded lines but more to nice and reasonable goods..
brands die after a while and there are always better brands..i cant keep up to the updates..

from the way i communicate with my parents and family, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i demand things from them but rather asked what do they need from me..
i figured i should bless them now..

from the way i meditate on life, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i treat days to come happily go lucky but i fear the future..
i believe in decision and consequences now..

from the way i dealt with things, i realised, i've changed..
no longer do i spill all my beans to people but rather keep them to myself..
i have an issue with trust now..



there are many more things that im changing into but i do not know how to express them out..
but bit by bit, i know, i've changed and i am still changing..

but dont get me wrong, im not in a depression state..
im a happy girl who is currently changing..

why do people changed?

* big sigh *

big sigh..

i cannot decide on anything.

im indecisive..

why cant i decide on one stupid thing??

* errrr..wroof *

i want my window live fix!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant play with any emotions..so sian and boring using window messenger..

* repair *

i have no idea why but my msn isn't working..

so yours truly tried to fix it..and it got worst..

the whole thing uninstalled by itself and i cant get it back..or rather, i do not know how to get it back..

so i need someone *ahem ahem* *hint hint - kvlye* to help me with it..

arrghhh...

technology..hate it..



on a brighter side, double As' wedding is coming..

this sunday..and yes, we're busy as can be..

abit frustrated, abit curious, abit anxious, abit nervous, abit pissed, abit mad, abit tired but most of all, very excited..

yea..so congrats andy and alice..

we'll see you at your wedding..

* my brother's birthday *

* the cake *

* the birthday boy and his cake and his retarded face *

* the birthday with the big blow *

* the birthday boy trying to do magic *

* the birthday boy cutting his cake with a retarded face *

happy birthday, nicholas!!!

God bless you always..

love you always..

* missing you, home *

count down : 7 days

yay!!

* why *

ok..here's for some of you who wants to know why i quit my job..

reasons :

1. i can't clique to the enviroment
2. i can see my potential and growth
3. its way too far and inconvenient to go to work
4. i'm not happy there
5. i can't progress much there..should i say, at all..


there..

those are the reasons..

go ahead and judge me if you want..

i expected them coming..

haha..

but im way happier now..

no worries about me cuz im dancing now..

* bad *

today.is.a.bad.day.for.me.

do.you.understand.my.english?

bad.day.today.

but.i.am.fine.still.

* the end *

i tendered in my first letter of resignation..and it feels good..
so long, farewell..
i need to say goodbye..

so here goes..my goodbyes..

ps:details later :P

* us *

* hearts *

* marble lesson *

A little boy and a little girl who wanted to make a trade.
Her bag of candy for his bag of marbles.

The night before they make the trade, the little boy decides there are three marbles he just can’t part with, so he takes them out and puts them under his pillow.

The next day, he gives her his bag of marbles minus three.
She gives him her candy.
The girl knows nothing about the other three marbles.

The little boy has a hard time sleeping, though.
He keeps wondering if she gave him all of her candy.

What we ought to know is have we given God all of our “marbles”?

Or are we wondering if He’s given us all of his?

Until we’ve given God everything we have, we will never be able to know God’s best.

That means letting go of the worldly attitudes.

That means letting go of the foolish ways of the world and holding on to Him.

That means getting a new, Godly attitude about things.

* tackless *

why...some people are just so tactless?

i wonder why..

hmm....

* nostalgic *

was cleaning my room and was getting rid of some very old stuffs in a very old box..

i came across letters and cards given to me by some of the very old friends of mine from college and hostel..that was about 4 years ago..

a sudden nostalgic feeling came upon me and i suddenly have the urge to sms and call up my old friends..

nothing is the same anymore..

what happened between the last 4 years?

everyone was busy..

but what really happened throughout the last 4 years?

* growing up *

my mass mail girls and i were constantly emailing one another for almost err..5 years now..

and just as we email one another, we found out that our latest updates are not as simple as updates of campus lives, friends and bfs..
it is more than that now..
our updates are mostly about jobs, careers, buying houses,buying cars, getting engaged and getting married..

how much we've grown and we didnt even notice..

sometimes, i wished i was still a small little child..and once in a while, i wished i could peek out of my blanket to see what is going on instead of having to set foot in it..

* piano *

i have always loved the piano..
well, not exactly always but i have always loved the sound it makes..

i started playing the piano when i was 6..love the teacher who was teaching me at that time..then, she had to get married so she stopped teaching me..at that time, i was 8 and i was in grade 3..

mom thought that i needed to continue on playing so she hired a man piano teacher to teach me..bad choice..
not only do i hate that teacher, he constantly abused me by pinching my hand, twisting my ears and knocking my head with his fist..
i stayed on learning from him for about 4 years..everytime, i would find excuses not to go to piano class fearing that the fat teacher will hit me again..and i was to afraid to tell anyone about what happened..

finally, i couldn't take the abuse anymore..took the courage and spilled the beans to my dad..
i stopped piano there and then ending my grade 5 in practical and grade 6 in theory..

i have bad sight reading as i cant read scores well..i memorise songs as i play..my listening skill is still top and dont get me started on scales..its bad..

and so piano has always been a part of my life and because of one bad teacher, it kills what i love doing..

now, i was wondering, would it be too late to rekindle the love i once felt for piano?